When I was like them …
I could run on my heels for whole nights without feeling them. Now, after half an hour my feet ache, so I walk barefoot or wear my trainers and … I’m happy.
When I was like them …
I drank to forget and I felt great. Now, I cry more, I suffer and I get angry with myself and with others, but I face my difficulties between a coffee and a piece of chocolate.
When I was like them …
the weekend was clubbing, shoes with heels, drinks in the my hands, “crazy fun”, pills & hot dogs .. and I returned home at six o’clock in the morning. There was the sunrise, but I did not see it. When I was like them …
always hanging around places, little study and little work, spending my mom’s and dad’s money and did not know the value of things and above all the value of people, of a family. Now, I’m often in the house, I spend more time with my family, but unfortunately they are not forever, I work and I do not spend my money just for stupid things but I prefer to travel seas, lakes and mountains .. to find out the true wonders of life!
I devote most of the time to my passions: to create .. to play .. to take photos, poetry and play football on Sunday. When I was like them instead …
I breathed only nicotine and smelt alcohol in the air … and I could not feel the scent of flowers that surrounded me, the salty sea flavor, the dishes my grandmother cooked with so much love.
But finally now I breathe healthily. Today … my grandmother is gone, so many dishes I have missed out, but … I try to build up that “flavor” … to me really unique and special. Now, with the money I no longer spend it on drinking and designers clothes, I make beautiful trips and I’m happy. In the evening I watch a nice movie and I go to bed happy, I go out to get some ice cream or a pizza or a beer … but, I know when to stop; Now, I know what I’m doing! I listen to the news, think about the future … When I was like them, I did not even have time for a nice movie, I “drove” into the crowd, between one club and another, night after night. until I got lost. We were all the same, nothing that distinguished us from the rest of the mass. Same clothes, same hair, same music … same story. I was tired. When I was like them …
the world could collapse, but I was too much taken from my evenings, from my ignorance, from all that “superficiality” I was surrounded. Well … I’m happy now; happy to be what I have become, thanks also to my mistakes, to my experiences.
Now I’m content to do little, I finally feel free, from every system of dependence. I think that’s the right thing … because first we notice it and before we can make a great jump fowards in our life … the jump! Do not be slaves of anything and anyone, but go out to find out who you are, because there is nothing more beautiful in the world than to be appreciated only for what we really are.
Imitating others we will never get anywhere.
Do not be afraid to be judged badly for not being equal to them, but indeed, feel great about it!
It takes courage, but if you succeed … you will have won forever.
Laura
