Tomorrow will be better

It’s snowing a lot today. Outside everything is completely white and silent, the snow dampens every sound and makes the landscape around surreal. I like all of this; I like to slowly walk under the snow flakes, the sound of my steps is my only company and I like to take these moments to think. I’m 40, 45 actually even though I do not want to admit it yet and my life is … well, it’s certainly isn’t as I had imagined it. I had a daughter when 18 and a half, a beautiful dark baby, with a lot of […]

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San, added to my name

For me “San”, added to my name would be like being summoned by the emperor of Japan. I do not know for what devilry of fate I am afflicted. However,  I was born in Japan, but from Slavic parents. My mother had been offered a job in Japan, they paid her the ticket, once she arrived in Tokyo, her visa lasted only 72 hours, the mob charged her the today equivalent of 30 thousand euros for the documents. My father was sent home; I did not see him for much longer. My mom stayed in a nightclub selling her body […]

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